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A Mother’s Prayer March 5, 2011

Filed under: Faith,Family,Love — silimommy @ 11:20 pm
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Today my mind was consumed… I can’t really put into words exactly by what. I guess the best way I can describe it was, that today was a deep day for me. Full of deep thought, deep emotions, and deep prayer…

My prayer life isn’t something I really share with anyone, but I hope that this will be a help to you.

Now before you get the wrong picture, I wasn’t kneeled down by my bed all day or laid out on the floor praying for hours. It was more so an, as it came type prayer, constantly being in a “prayer mode”. As I washed dishes, folded laundry, and did the other things I had to do, I prayed…

My heart just felt so heavy.

My prayer was something along these lines…

“Lord please help me. My hearts desire is to be a good wife and mother. I am striving to be a gentle, loving mom, and a gentle, loving wife. I know I fail every day, but I need your help. Please, help me to be the best person that I can be…..”

My prayers always trail off like this. I feel like I can’t get the words out right. Like saying them isn’t enough. For some reason my prayers can’t be finished with a simple “Amen”, instead I almost always go into a song, and the tears are never far behind. It never fails that somehow a song just comes to me and helps me along in my prayer.

Today was no different. I felt stuck like I had no more words and then, there it was. Ringing out in my head, then I heard myself singing it, then the tears began to flow… iI’s as if in the moment of breaking through my prayer into song that I have also broken through to heaven…

Here was my prayer song:

I don’t know if anyone else has this same prayer experience. I’ve actually never really thought much of it until today. I guess this is just the way I am. I love to sing so it really only makes sense that during the sacred practice of prayer, I sing to the one who gave me the ability to do so…

Here are a few verses on gentleness.

  • “Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.” Ephesians 4:2
  • “Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near.” Philippians 4:5
  • “Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.” Colossians 3:12
  • “As apostles of Christ we could have been a burden to you, but we were gentle among you, like a mother caring for her little children.” 1 Thessalonians 2:7

I love the reference in this last verse… “like a mother caring for her little children”.

Being gentle requires patience, humility, kindness, and compassion. But most of all it requires love. What other type of love should be more gentle than that of a wife and mother?

Do you have the same or similar experience as mine when it comes to prayer? 

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